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Aaa I think I’m getting the hang of hcs?? Am I?? It’s certainly been easier this time for me to write them than before. Idk. HAHAHAHA

So. Um. I’m terribly sorry for this. I usually don’t like letting my own personal experiences color my writing cuz,, idk, it’s unfair to other walks of life who haven’t experienced shit like i did??? Idk really how to explain it hahaha, but when I say that, jealousy is included. It’s just that, for example, I’ve had a really bad experience with jealousy that I can’t imagine it ever be cute?? So, yeah, these hcs are smth ahahaha. If it comes off as preachy or something, please know I really didn’t mean that ??

Anyway, yeah ahahaha. Thank you for the request! I don’t think these are quite what you wanted, but I hope you enjoy it still ahahaha. Have a nice day!! ❣️❣️❣️

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M. Tokito

HCs: jealousy

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• Muichiro doesn’t know jealousy, doesn’t know what it is or how it works. All he knows is the distasteful feeling coiling in his chest that prevents him from acting as efficiently as possible in his job. All he can think of is you, and somehow, instead of happiness, the emotion that accompanies is unpleasant.
• He looks for the source. Of course, his main priority has always been his job, and he’s going to make damn well sure he does his job well, and he can’t do that when you’re distracting him too much, even when you’re not in the vicinity.
• He tries to talk to you. At first, everything is well — he’s having fun, relaxing, basking in the warmth that is you. And then that guy comes in and steals your attention. Suddenly, all the air leaves his lungs, and his chest constricts to a painful degree.
• He stares at you pointedly, almost as if trying to mentally will you to turn back and look at only him again. It doesn’t work, of course. Logically, he knows that it won’t work. Doesn’t stop him from feeling irritated and angry, though. He storms off, stewing in his own mind.
• That’s annoying. Now he really can’t focus on his training. Every time he sees you with someone else, he feels incredibly, incredibly aggravated. He hopes you’ll just magically know somehow what he’s feeling and make it all better with your smiles, but that doesn’t happen, and he just falls in deeper into jealousy.
• That guy’s face is carved into his mind. He gets rather vicious really fast whenever he sees that guy. Actually, no. He’s devious first, vicious next. He offers to train the guy as an honorary tsuguko. It’s a prestigious title that almost nobody gets, so of course he agrees, eagerly. Then the training begins.
• “How the hell did you survive until now? Your sword skills are nasty.”
• “You’d make better livestock than slayer, you incompetent nincompoop.”
• “Are you even trying? I’ve never seen anyone so disgustingly inept as you. What are you, a noob? Stop whining like a baby and practice that attack 500 more times.”
• He takes sadistic pleasure in watching the man struggle. Day in, day out: verbal lashings, unfair and heavy physical training, stone-flicking, bashing — anything he can think of.
• Probably the best thing of all is that you’ve started visiting his Estate to watch them practice. Muichiro greatly cherishes these moments when you visit, though they’re marred by a sense of irritation still. He can’t help but wonder if you just came over to watch that guy train.
• Doesn’t help that you’re both too friendly with each other. Why are you letting him touch your arm? Why are you laughing with him? Is he that funny? Why are you going out to eat lunch with him without Muichiro? Is Muichiro too bland of a person to hang out with now?
• These insecurities color his interactions grey with you. He becomes cold and harsh with you when you’re alone. But when you’re in public, he clings to you tighter than a leech, fending off anyone who even dares to think of approaching you with a glare.
• This very confusing behavior continues on for several days, until finally, you burst and confront him about it.
• Muichiro’s reply is very simple: “I don’t like you hanging out with that guy,” and he says this so matter-of-factly and easily that it takes you aback for a few seconds.
• You try to explain that you’re just friends and that you haven’t been ignoring Muichiro in favor of your new friend, and no, you are not replacing Muichiro with him.
• But he isn’t having any of it. He huffs and pouts and uses everything in his arsenal to make you agree to hang out with only him. Isn’t he enough to make you happy? Why do you need other people? Muichiro doesn’t understand.
• Calmly, you talk to him about boundaries. As always, Muichiro listens intently to you, though you can tell he’s frustrated. You’re not answering his questions with all this boundary talk.
• But the fact is, Muichiro makes you extremely happy, but he doesn’t own you, and your life doesn’t revolve around him. Same thing goes the other way around: Muichiro’s his own person as much as you are. Sad as it may sound, Muichiro makes you happy, but he isn’t enough to make you completely happy.
• You both come to an agreement to talk about it whenever Muichiro feels jealous of you hanging out with someone else. He agrees to it, along with the condition that you cuddle him whenever he admits to being jealous. An additional incentive of sorts.
• Muichiro’s really just afraid of losing you to anything. You understand that, of course, because you feel exactly the same for him. But Muichiro also wants you to be happy, so he tries to do as you say and talk to you about these kinds of things. It feels rather awkward at first, to just casually admit to feeling jealous, but hey, he does get extra cuddles to show up for it, so it’s worth it.