The Latest Kate

Art vs Artist Meme

Hi there. I am Kate Allan. I create art about sad things but make it okay with bright colors and sparkles.

The truth is, I wrangle daily with a negative self-image and anxiety. What makes me feel connected and present is creating art and helping others. Whenever I write a caption or draw something colorful, I feel like there’s a chance I can prevent someone else feeling the way I have often felt; alone, unworthy, and hopeless. Preventing pain gives me purpose.I’m still figuring out why I feel down a lot of the time. Part of it, I know, is just the usual checklist (Did you sleep okay? How are your vitamin D levels? Have you eaten recently? Did you connect with anyone today?), but the rest, I think, is a combination of coming from a difficult background and also just plain having a misbehaving brain.

Why I’m telling you all of this? I guess, because, I have unintentionally been hiding behind my computer screen. I have never been comfortable with attention. And because of this, I have seen here and there some assumptions of what I am like, usually amounting to someone who is very healthy, someone who is very wise, someone who knows how to cure depression and get you through recovery and figured out T H E S E C R E T to being an Actual HAPPY Adult.I know most of you don’t assume this, but I felt like I was lying to everyone if I didn’t say something. I am like you. I try to do the.. being alive? stuff. This, making this stuff, this is how I try. What’s the takeaway, Kate? What’s the takeaway. Okay.If anything, please know there are other people struggling too. If you’re having a shit time, you don’t have to feel like you’re totally alone in that. Life is hard. Here is a video I watched recently that helped me feel connected, it might help you too (also it made me cry, but like, the good kind of crying).Okay. Yes. Thank you for reading.